First Injections :-(

Oliver had his first injections today and his first check up. I had to wake him up to go to the doctors so he was already not happy, but who can blame him nobody likes to be woken when their in a deep sleep, especially at two in the morning :-(

Bless the little man he was not happy. First Oliver was weighed and measured. He is in the 50 percentile for his weight and 80th percentile for his height. His head is in the 91st percentile so I guess he has a lot going on up top ;-)

I felt absolutely awful having to hold my little man whilst the nurse gave him two injections. I started to worry that Oliver would associate sitting on Mummy's lap with pain because I held him. My friend Lisa (One of Oliver's God Mother's to be)offered to hold him whilst the deed was done but I declined the offer knowing I wanted to be able to hold him, and whisper in his ear that I loved him and everything would be ok.

I asked myself how anyone could ever hurt their children as I sat there almost in tears watching Oliver get so upset. Oliver is so precious and I love him so much. I keep praying that I will be a good mum and that Oliver will always love his mummy. I think about people who fall out with their parents and wonder how that can be. I would be devastated if that ever happened. I can only hope I do right with Oliver and listen and understand his needs. I want Oliver to grow up to be a confident and secure man and want him to have the freedom to explore life and experience true happiness like I have with Steve. To do this, I will be supportive, and encouraging as much as I can, and hope that I can advise Oliver well on decisions I might not think are always the best, but that ultimately are Oliver's choice.

Tomorrow, I have my post natal check and will no longer have an excuse for not going to the gym (apart from finding the time to go). I have to get back in shape now and get fit and healthy for Oliver's sister or brother one day (fingers crossed).

Oliver has started to go to bed a little earlier the last few days and sleep longer, hence the reason I have had time to write a long blog. I am trying my best to write as often as possible, but find having the time and energy to do so is pretty hard right now. I know Steve writes a lot more that I do, and often does this during his lunch times at work, so at least someone is on top of our families events and happenings. I can assure you, I have plenty of things to keep me busy throughout the day and night, and a litle man named Oliver who needs a lot of my attention, not to mention all the other jobs to keep our household ticking. I just wonder how people with twins cope, or how folks that have several children under the age of five manage. Of course, having more than one child under five could be us one day!

A blog update at last

I bet you all thought I'd left the face of the earth? I am happy to say I am well and happy and only just finding the time to write a blog. Everyday my time is so precious. The little man and I are always so busy going to Baby cafe, Clinic, Mother and Baby and visiting other mums we have met in our Ante Natal classes.

Oliver is such a joy, smiling lots now and even holding his head up. Oliver is eight weeks old today and already wearing clothes that are 3-6 months. I love being a mum and love having a family. Steve is wonderful with Oliver and very patient with me, especially in the middle of the night when I'm at my worse. The sleepless nights are hard but hopefully they will get better as Oliver gets bigger. I already know all the things he likes and dislikes, one of his dislikes is being held a lot. We went to Wiltshire at the weekend and I felt so sorry for the little man as everyone wanted to hold him but he wanted to be left alone. Oliver loves the fresh air and the car and best of all getting up in the morning. I bet he is not so keen at getting up when he's a teenager or going to school ;-)

I cannot believe how fast my maternity leave is going. My colleague Kerry has extended her maternity leave and is taking some unpaid maternity, so Steve and I are working out our finances to see if we can do the same. Ultimately, any unpaid maternity leave I take will depend upon how my work are about it. We are thinking about putting Oliver in his day care one afternoon a week so that he gets used to it and Steve and I can have a little time together. This may sound harsh but we do not have family leaving near us and do not have any other help, so all our time is spent on Oliver. I think it is important not to forget each other and at times I miss Steve because we do not have the time we used to have. I know this will not be for ever and Oliver is the best thing that has happened to us both, but we need to remember each other too because we could get easily wrapped up in our baby son and forget how he got here in the first place. Maybe one day soon Steve and I will go for a bike ride together and then maybe I'll start shifting some of the weight I have put on. I mean, I need to get healthy and fit ready for the next one ;-)