13 Weeks & 3 days

I really do feel ashamed that I am not writing down my thoughts more often. Steve is putting me to shame, but then he's not the one who's tired all the time. I feel sometimes I could sleep for a week and still feel tired. Apparently, the tiredness is supposed to subside once you hit the second trimester but there’s no sign of that for me yet. Also, my back has not really stopped aching from day one. My posture is not exactly fantastic so I don't think that helps matters.

We have told everyone now and feel very good about doing so, although to be honest it was nice having our little secret to ourselves. As soon as I told my mum she was planning her trip up here when the baby is born. I know she means well, but we really do not have the room for her to stay in our house. I do not want my mum staying in the baby’s room because we don’t want the baby getting used to having someone in their room. I am sure my mum will offer to sleep on the sofa but that will also disrupt all our lives for two weeks as you have to go through our living room to get out of the house. I actually feel a little stressed over the fact I have to tell my mum she can come up to see us, but that she will have to stay in a hotel or a bed and breakfast. I am also concerned that my mum wants to stay with us immediately after the baby is born as I think we just need to get used to the three of us being at home. If my mum is around I’m sure I will end up getting frustrated when my mum tells me to do things a certain way. I want to learn as I go along and I am sure I will make mistakes, but isn’t that how we learn things in life? My decision is to offer my mum to stay after a few weeks of the baby being born. I will however have to ask my mum to stay in bed and breakfast which I know will not go down well. If Steve and I had the room we would not hesitate for mum to stay with us, and once we are able to buy a bigger house there will not be a problem accommodating our friends and family.

On a more positive note, we have just watched Manchester UTD beat Everton in the 5th round of the FA Cup 2-0. Steve and I have already been discussing today how early we can start getting our baby in a Manchester UTD kit. I told Steve as soon as he/she is born we can get a Man UTD baby outfit, and Steve was shocked you could get such a small item, but I know I already looked.

Our scan was on Wednesday; wow it was so amazing to actually see the baby on a screen. I felt like the baby was looking at us, and we saw the baby moving around. When I returned to work on Wednesday afternoon I kept smiling to myself thinking about how the baby was moving around inside me. I guess it will not be too long before I feel him or her. On the subject of him or her, Steve and I are trying to decide if we want to know the sex of our baby at the next scan (20 weeks). Steve definitely wants to know but I am not sure yet as part of me believes not knowing is all part of the experience. When you don’t know you choose two names and anticipate with great excitement the arrival of your son or daughter. The upside of knowing is that we can be more prepared and know what colours to buy ect. Oh well, we have a little time to decide yet. The main thing is for us to have a healthy and happy baby.